Five Finger Death Punch - Never Enough
This song reminds me of senior year. It’s gotten me through a lot of tough times.
In the end we’re all just chalk lines on the concrete
Drawn only to be washed away
For the time that I’ve been given
I am what i am
*Click*
My mood switches
I’m falling back into darkness
I feel myself crumbling
My skin starts to itch and… No
Stop
Think
Breathe
Take control
Meds, Get your meds
I unscrew the bottle
Take the two small white pill
Pop them in my mouth
I tell myself I’ll be fine in a few minutes
I won’t have to go back to that place
But when I look down into the bottle
I see my stash diminishing
Three… Four days tops
Meds cost a ton and
Money is tight right now
I tell my mom
See the look in her eyes
and I know
I might not be able to get them
What will I do then?
Where will that leave me?
I look at the scars on my arm and shudder…
the darkness is waiting
I was sitting on the couch perfectly fine then BLAM it hit me! this overwhelming feeling of pure BLAHHH I suddenly felt lost, out of breathe and on the brink of crying. My skin started to itch and I thoughts of cutting flashed through my head. so I started hunting for my Ipod(Zune actually) cause music always helps and while I was looking I just STOPPED “Why am I feeling like this? This isn’t normal.” then it hit me HOLY SHIT I DIDN’T TAKE MY MEDS TODAY!! So I got them out of my room and took them and within 5 minutes I had calmed down (i am sure some of that was a placebo effect but whatever) it just amazes me how these little round pills can completely change my mood. It actually scares me a little because what happens when I run out and can’t pay for them anymore… going back to that place, how I use to be…I can’t do it, I just cant.
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